Beth Moore, the popular Christian author, and speaker has just released her latest book titled “All My Knotted-Up Life: Confessions of a Woman Tangled in Depression, Anxiety, and Panic Disorder.” In this new memoir, Moore shares her deeply personal and honest struggles with mental health and the impact it has had on her life.
Moore has been open about her struggles with anxiety and depression for many years, but in “All My Knotted-Up Life,” she delves deeper into her experiences and the challenges she faced.
The author had taken to her official Twitter handle on Tuesday where she announced the release of the new memoir.
Release day. Deep breath. Ok, well, here you go: the whole big knot of it. My prayer is that something in my story will mean something to yours. This much I know: the God who knows every intimate detail, knows you better than you know yourself, loves you.https://t.co/LVUPMk6aW9
— Beth Moore (@BethMooreLPM) February 21, 2023
In an interview with CBN at her Living Proof ministry headquarters in Houston, Texas, Moore talked about her brother, Wayne who had died days before. Wayne appears on the front cover of the new memoir alongside other siblings. Moore said; “I just looked up to him, and just loved him so, so much,” Moore said during the interview. “We are reeling. But I had gotten him an advance copy of the memoir and it just moved me so much to know that he got to see himself through my eyes in those pages.”
The new memoir, “All My Knotted-Up Life” Features the difficult childhood story of the Bible believer. Moore had always talked about surviving sexual abuse as a child, but for the first time she revealed the abuser as her father. “I’m not sure anything impacts your life more than your protector being your perpetrator,” she said. “In other words, my father was the person on earth that I could trust the least. My home was not safe.”
“Normally there is a sense of threat, like he would not have said, ‘You better not ever tell this’ – but he did say over and over was that ‘we had to protect my mom because she was not stable.’ So, he used that. So, there was like, ‘I’m not only going to split up my entire family but I’m going to cause my mother to kill herself.’ All of this, it’s so much for a child to deal with.”
Moore further revealed that watching her father actively participating in their local church activity made living a hell for her.
“I got to watch him just prance up and down those aisles and teach his classes and usher and the confusion of that,” she said. “The very fact that within those walls I believed my Sunday school teachers over what I was seeing at home to me is a testimony of God’s grace.”
Moore’s writing is honest and raw, and readers will undoubtedly find comfort in her vulnerability. She shares her lowest moments, including her struggles with suicidal thoughts, as well as the moments of hope and healing that kept her going. She also speaks candidly about her faith and the role it played in her recovery.
“I definitely had a death wish, definitely, definitely, without a doubt,” she said. “It seemed to me at several points in my life this is the only way out. I was fearful of the Lord to take my own life. But I did wish that he would take it.”
In the new memoir, she also delved into her husband’s mental illness which she had to live through 45 years of her marriage. “The thing about what Keith had dealt with severe PTSD, and then bi-polar, is that you never knew when there was going to be a sudden episode,” said Moore.
Moore, in the interview also talked about how she casted herself on Jesus. She said; “I guess the best thing that has come out of it for me and for us is that you talk about a woman casting herself on Jesus,”
As she credits her recovery and healing to God, Moore also pointed out how much therapy has played significant role in her healing.
The book is divided into sections, each focusing on a different phase of Moore’s life.
Fans of Moore’s previous work will not be disappointed by “All My Knotted-Up Life.” It is a deeply personal and moving memoir that will resonate with anyone who has struggled with mental health.